I hate the way you are
So mean to me by far
The most frigid girl
That i have ever known

You speak loudly, but
When i'm not around
You'll be just like them
So shallow and obnoxious

Please...
That's enough…
That's enough…
Please...

I've said this a million times before
And i'm sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

You said that you'd call
But time you'll be at home
But you never did
You said you did mean to

Now i'm outraged
As if we're engaged
You made me realize
I'm just your alibi

Please...
That's enough…
That's enough…
Please...

I've said this a million times before
And i'm sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

And all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

I hate you..

This is it. What you see is true, this may be my final blog entry. Im tired of everything. Tired of not being appreciated, tired of feeling sorry for myself tired of thinking what might have been, tired of punishing myself about thing I should have done, tired of pretending who I am not, and im tired of getting hurt all the time. Well, no more… I don’t want to feel anything. My life has been a constant downward spiral since… since my heart started beating… everything changed… I was slowly losing my sanity and I guess I had at some point. Enough of this madness… I thought that everything will be worth it as long as I get my wish… but no, its not… so from now on, I will feel no more.


Why do these things happen to me? I don’t deserve it… hell, no one does. Why is it so fucking hard?!


Before all of this, I had a plan. I was on a path. I got lost but now that changes. I will do what I had been planning all my life. Nothing can stop me now… I think there is one thing but I doubt that will happen soon.


Enough of my bullshit, emotional my ass, im done with that.

revealed by james at 6:46 AM

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